I was actually feeling pretty good when I posted this thinking it was a good question to ask and now my friend made me feel like crap because she swears up and down I keep trying to self diagnose myself. I just want to understand things so that I can recognize and manage triggers. Like she doesn't even realize that when she doesn't let me have my moment of clarity she just sends me into the mood of feeling worthless. 😐😯 thanks everyone for your comments. I'm just trying to piece together some moments in my past that are starting to make sense you know.