Hello everyone. I was just reaching out to see if any of you have advice or have ever dealt with the following issues..

I grew up with a mother that was emotionally neglectful. She was definitely depressed and pretty much stayed in her bedroom for alot of my childhood. She was also unpredictable, sometimes she would be angry, overally talkative, or completely ignore me (ignoring me was how she was most of the time).

I am 30 years old and to this day still have such a hard time with romantic relationships. I always feel as though my significant other will leave me at any given time. I have felt like this in all.of my relationships. Now that I am older I think it is even worse because I want to find the right person and get married, kids, etc so I put even more worry on them leaving because all I want is something stable. I am also very clingy but always try to hide it from my partners the best I can but it does come out at times.

How can I get over my past and just let things be when it comes to relationships. I am so tired of overanalyzing everything and never feeling secure. This even slightly trickles into my friendships. I have had people disapear on me before so that even reinforces my fear. I am also very insecure with myself and I know this adds into how I feel/act. I really appreciate Your feedback as this is a constant struggle in my life and I don't want to self sabotage my current relationship. Thank you so much 💜