i have always gone to a female obgyn because when i first started going at 16 i was too uncomfortable with a male doctor. my family and friends are back in ohio and we live in illinois now. my mom and my sister go to the same obgyn (creepy i know).

we actually were talking about condoms a little bit ago because i just bawled my eyes for about 3 hours because i feel like a cyst just ruptured again. and he said if it comes down to us not having sex but you feeling better i can live. its not a big deal. i hate seeing you in pain so if you want to stop then stop. (i love him ) so then we remembered that when we first met and we used condoms the ones he had were too small. so were going to go to walgreens or something and get some bigger ones and see if that makes a difference. i didnt know they had like 30 kinds of condoms lol.

i had also been told that what happens is that if youre pumped full of estrogen your body makes up for it by producing more testosterone and thats why mine was high (or something like that). i did use to be hypoglycemic and have a family history of diabetes. i started when i was 11 and didnt go on the pill til 16 so there was a good 5 years with no cramps no nothing. then i get put on birth control and all these symptoms start showing up.

luckily i have just about the most understanding boyfriend in the world and he isnt complaining about "well what am i supposed to do?" my ex was helping me out with birth control when i first started because i couldnt afford it by myself. then all of a sudden he said that he shouldnt have to help me out because i wasnt giving it up enough for him. wonderful men lol

so anyways..... im going to finish this pack out cause i just started a new pack yesterday so i dont want to screw my body up and then were going to try condoms i guess. we were talking about all the forms and they all have horrible side effects an drawbacks.

let you guys know how it goes. wish me condom luck lol