I'm done trying. I've tried for over 14 years to be something I'm not. I'm not a happy person. I'm the kid who got bullied one too many times. That one who is tired of coming back, because he already knows what's going to happen. Life has hurt me one to many times so I'm done living. I'm done with this charade that was my life. I think its time to embrace the dark side of my life and stop giving a ****. Why should I when caring only gets me hurt. Or maybe I should just exist. Not caring one way or another what happens to me. I'm sick and tired of hurting inside. The only reason I'm still here is that I might fail. I wont like my life as a veg, or without the use of my body. If there was a foolproof way to end things I would. And no I'm not suicidal. Just tired of the insanity that is my life. The endless circle that is depression and the bursts of anger that come up. I'm tired of lying and faking my way through life. I'm done with this. I'm done with it all.