Yeah, it really can be hard to express feelings. I'm fine with what you wrote - I appreciate your response :-)

I guess... I take little risks with my therapist. Sometimes he responds well (and that is healing) and sometimes he doesn't (and that hurts me immensely). I think we are still getting to know each other and he really doesn't know what is needed at times... We fix things up (because I know he is basically trying, and basically well intentioned, and basically non-judgmental etc). But it is slow, yeah. And sometimes I withdraw cause that is what I need to do... And sometimes I take a little risk, yeah.

:-)