From my earlier meltdown, I realize something isn't working in my plan. Whether it's situational v day and wedding or full onset depression or combination of both I am majorly depressed. I want to stand by my meds. Besides my bday and this week I have been fine for the most part, except coming into darkness and isolation. I regret not taking pictures cause I hate my body, but I have none to look at to remind me of good times. Picture of my 20s are completely different than I am now. I'm still in tears and hurting. Not as bad as before but something has got to give.

I need to start getting out there.
I have to stop going straight to bed and do nothing.
I need to start watching a little tv. (Makes my 214 dollar bill worth it)
I need to get out more.
I need adventures.
I need more socialization.
I need to lose weight, I have lost 20 lbs already.
I need to love myself for who I am and
I need to realize the good in me and the potential I have. I came inches from my dream to have it taken away, that's the past. I need a new dream or my other dream of being a lawyer.

Please fill in things you think I need to do.