My car broke down again today... and to be honest I don't really even have enough money to buy food, let alone fix it. I'll have to throw it on my credit card and hope that I some how stay afloat. After I get over this catastrophe I need to find a way to pay for college, which I am excited about attending, I just wish I could enjoy the moment without constantly being stressed about finances. Living off cans of soup and microwave meals doesn't do my bowels much justice, I ran out of toilet paper and had to use paper towels and now the toilet is clogged. I can't even go to the store to buy a plunger because I have no transportation... laugh. I wish I had relationship issues because that would be the least of my problems, but I don't even feel an urge to pursue one. My friends want to go out to the bars which I have no problem doing, but I just don't feel like putting effort into meeting someone new and having to pretend to be something I'm not. I know though, if you don't put any effort towards it then don't expect something to magically fall in your lap. I was working happily, until the mortgage market collapsed. No one wants to refinance or purchase a new home, but hey thats just life. Just seems that life likes to keep kicking me while I'm down, I just wish I had a little time to breathe.

Anyways, I know a lot of people have problems worse than mine, just wish someone would tell me it'll all be okay in the end.