Thank you guys so much. It actually does help a little to know that I am not alone. I know that my sister is also having a hard time, but with her living so far away, it makes it hard for us to fully support each other.
My mom was the most important person in my life. My sister and I would always say things like "if you die", never "when you die". She was the best person I could have ever hoped to know. And because my father was never around, it's like we lost 3 people that day. Our Mother, Father and Best friend.
So many things have happened since she's passed that I've wanted to tell her. I guess I just have to accept that my life will never be the same, but that doesn't mean that it will be a bad life. Just a new life. A new normal. And even though I never asked for this stupid new life, I must move forward. Ugh. I HATE FEELINGS!