Scream as much as you want! Do whatever it is that will help you get through it.

I have not forgiven those that have abused me. True forgiveness means forgetting and I cannot do that. I have made a conscience effort not to hate those individuals. In my mind if I hate them, that gives them control over me once again. I will not do that, I will not let hate fester and eat me up inside. I have made sure that I've educated my children, told them all the excuses and warnings that I've known abusers to give. I've watched them well and am happy to say that they were able to grow up safe and sound.

I believe that there is a special place in hell for those people that abuse children. That fills my need for revenge. That and publicly announcing when I see the man walk down the street that he molested me and not to allow your children near him.

I HATE that you were abused Freewill. I HATE that with a passion. I hope that you are able to overcome this.