Hi Sunny,
Oh no he wasn't saying it was unproductive. He was explaining to me what happened. However, he was also saying that we need to find a way to integrate these experiences without retraumatizing me. So I supose the goal is to find the feeling state without going off the deep end? Difficult to do when you have walked a lot of planks in your life. So the goal for me is to access my feelings without completely losing myself which is what happened this week.
That is why we have agreed that T will help me find my safe place when it seems I am getting completely lost. The dissociation completely takes over at times. It is a direct result of trauma.
Yes, I do trust him but it took a looooooooooooooooooong time to get there.
Peace