I wish this was my last day on earth

This is another pointless rant... I'm not worth the medics time to talk, maybe I'm not worthy of this space either

More and more ... it seems....I'm a "failure" and "useless"

Papa bear disagrees ... but if you guys knew more about me .. well I'm not exactly the most functional "human" on this planet, my allergies are absolutely ridiculous and it seems there is little that can be done about them..

I don't want to take oral steroids that idea absolutely freaks me out

A doctor I only consulted once tried to prescribe betnovate, a strong steroid, to use all over my face, wtf?

They said "hydrocortisone wouldn't touch it"

Another doctor had said "we all know hydrocortisone shouldn't be used on the face"

Omg.... maybe it would be better if I had no freakin memory then I wouldn't remember all these ridiculous contradictions and lack of compassion and care

And yet I was told I was "paranoid" about eczema by another all knowing medic (admittedly it wasn't as severe then and obviously this person had no freakin idea or imagination )