Good news, but I am still jumping to conclusions.. let me explain.

My mom sent the balance of what I owed up this morning with an aunt. So that is good.

But the ex/roomate had to stay in town last night because he worked extremely late, and hasn't come home to pay the rent yet. I KNEW he wasn't going to be home last night, but that doesn't alleiviate my anxiety any about the facts..

Now my head is spinning again thinking. What if he just doesn't come home? What if he took the money and spent it? What if he doesn't come home to pay the money? What if he took off?

Now, I have to admit, all of this thinking is QUITE irrational. I KNOW that. Knowing that doesn't make it any easier. I would call him but I am not sure exactly where he stayed. I need to calm my irrational thoughts and wait until later when he comes to pay the rent, instead of jumping to wild conclusions. I hate that I do that, and I hate that i turn everything into a crisis.

Comes with having Borderline Personality i think, with all the black and white thinking. I wonder why knowing that doesn't make it easier to deal with?

So just another few hours/possibly till this evening when things will be sorted out.