You've got to be gentle with yourself. Two major losses in less than two months would be hard on anyon you can't expect to feel ok right now. Accept that you feel like ****. Anyone would.

TBH meds probably won't help right now. It's an actual trauma that won't be resolved by meds. In my opinion anyway. Just keep talking about it, writing about it, however you can get it out of you. Staying with your mom for a bit is a good idea. I moved back in with my mom when my husband died. She has been a big help.

It will get better. Grief takes a lot of time but it won't last forever. You're strong enough to handle it, even if you don't feel like it.