I've always struggled to take care of myself physically. I feel it's partly because I've still been angry that 'no one' did it for me when I was little! I feel someone else should've done it for me first.. Of course, that's true - but it simply didn't happen There's no going back now, I can't fix it.

Now I feel I actually want to take responsibility for myself.. If I don't want to feel tired, dirty, hungry - I have to sleep better, take care of my hygiene, eat more! I have to actually do these things - no one else can do them for me now. Of course, people can help me if they want to - if I'm absolutely too exhausted to cook for myself, for instance, I can ask for someone to help me out. But I also have to take responsibility for asking for help! No one can help me if they don't know that I need something.

I feel this is actually a good thing - I can finally do something about the things I'm not happy about! I can do it.. I don't have to wait for anyone else to care or notice that I need them