Every time I get close to crying I have a panic attack instead. I'm going to try spending a little time alone at my house tomorrow and see what happens but I think I blew it with avoiding it in therapy for this week.

The weird thing is I stayed here for 10 months while my house was being built and was so glad to get out of here. And now it feels like a safe place that I don't want to leave. Of course when I stayed here before I had both my kitties....