I'm really struggling right now. I don't know where I fit in anymore. I was severely abused as a child, and have had abusive relationships in the past. Every time I say something, I get a backlash for it, even by a close friend who I thought I could trust. I feel so out of place and out of touch. They say talking about it helps, but when you continually get punished for it, you learn to keep the silence. I can't say who I told, but they should have known better. So I'm giving up. I have to talk to this person tomorrow, and I don't know if I should tell them how much I'm hurting or not. Where do I fit in? Where is a safe place, because right now I just don't know. I don't know where I belong. I don't even know if Im welcome here.