ya know gtr? this one really makes a lot of sense to me... i've always projected my emotions outward... seeking some connection with others, some real, real contact, cause inside i was dying every day... the number of people who i occasionally was able to make that contact with was not many.. but in hindsight, i think it wa usually a woman, not a man who i made the feeblest of connections with... why would i keep putting myself out there when sometimes it seems the only i get back is a slap and told to stand up, be a man... or worse... silence...why do i keep trying?