I brought up marriage counseling and she said "As of right now, my priorities are nursing school, work and taking care of the kids". She's told her mother she doesn't want to go back to the way it was (I realize I had faults in the marriage as no one is perfect) and that I needed to focus on working on myself. I admit when I came back from deployment I was an emotional train wreck for being gone 9 months and coming back to living in separate houses and dealing with a cold and harsh woman. She holds the texting thing over my head as a crutch to do bad decisions herself. I admitted my faults and asked for forgiveness but she said "I forgive you, but that doesn't mean we need to live together at this moment". Additionally I am trying hard to find faith again and do better things to show I care but she says I'm "Faking" them. It just hurts. I just don't know what to do and how to handle this situation with the little communication we have