If you really want to express that you love him, maybe just do it in the method that is most comfortable for you. Perhaps you can do it through writing. I don't know. I am a bit depressed now because I just realized that I could never tell my T "I love you" but I have no problem saying "I want to have sex with you." What the hell???? Anyway, I think it is absolutely wonderful what your T said to you and a teeny, tiny bit funny to picture him sitting there all pale for the rest of the session. I mean, now that everything worked out we have to smile a little bit about tha t :-) It must have been awfully shocking for both of you. I'm really glad that it worked out for you.