I think I understand, So....

If I am correct, (a big "if") then it's your own journey...

Hugs.

ETA because I sound coldhearted and don't mean to.....we all have our path to go on to get where we need to go. However we get through our issues is just the right way for us.
I hope we can all be there for you like you are for us. None of our lives are the same as anyone else's...our struggles are different, but we understand...