I used to think it was no big deal, just my life...actually I still think that way sometimes...but I have been working on getting a comparison. I read inspiring books about women who have lead incredible lives, or just simple everyday lives that seem incredible because they have found a way to deal with life without cutting, without self inflicted abuse. Reading these stories makes me think, "Hey I want that." Yeah, basically it is no big deal. It makes me feel better when I do it but I don't want to do it anymore because as long as I depend on SI as a relief I will not find better ways that will ultimately lead to a happier existance that doesn't need the type of drastic relief that cutting gives.
Carrie

<font color=green>Not knowing when the dawn will come, I open every door.--Emily Dickenson