this is totally random, but this is a poem sent to me by another member. he left here i am pretty sure, but yeah. first time i read it it made me cry, as it was yet another thing to reming me that this world is a cruel and unforgivable place.

My screams beg for the mercy of a fate left behind.
My silence mistaken for sanity in my mind.
Take what you can get and leave me to wither.
I can't move when over me your fingertips must slither.

The dirt from your fingertips stains me beneath the skin.
The torment from your touch wears my soul ever so thin.
I hold my breath and imagine you aren't behind me.
I shriek in my skull and shut my eyes so u cant see.

Your instructions are never to tell another living soul,
While you stand before me and invade my dirty hole,
You care not for the begs and pleads to stop,
As you thrust harder causing my voice to drop.

I shreik a whisper as you moan low and explode deep inside.
You pull your pants up and leave your sin with me inside.
I couldnt even hug you without fearing the worst.
Now, i can never say i enjoyed my first.

you took away everything i could have hoped for
when you turned me around and made me your *****.

why he sent it to me i dont know. what he was trying to convey i dont know. he sent me another, which was different and harder to understand.
if the member is still here under a different name, i dont dislike them at all for what they did to my friend and i, and i forgive them for accusing me to try to escape blame. meh it doesnt matter its all past.
i guess i needed to post to let it go.