I have always felt that my friend had a mysterious dark side to his personality, but I've never known precisely what. Before the fateful visit in 2009, I had begun to suspect that my friend was bisexual or gay and was attracted to me. This made me apprehensive about the visit. Maybe that apprehensiveness triggered psychosis. The other problem with seeing my friend, is that his career and life has moved ahead over the past 15 years, and my career and life have gone into the gutter. It makes me angry at myself for giving up my career 15 years ago. This anger may have also triggered psychosis.