My heart yearns for a woman's compassionate heart.
I want to love a woman for who she is.
I wrote about it in some threads here, about me and women.
I'm working on feeling comfortable with whichever woman I meet. I'm working on overcoming feelings that women are cold, selfish, etc. I just don't wanna say such words anymore, it hurts my heart.
I feel that it can be like I once feared dogs - I feared them greatly, but after I got a dog at home, I started loving dogs like crazy!
I want it the same with women!

Sad Mermaid - I'll say it openly. When I first read your post, I got an impulsive negative reaction - "how could she say I'm bad at english and naive, as I wrote my post late at night with so much details to remember. My English is fluent as I consume English media on a daily basis, more than my native language". My first reaction was as if you're judging me. But then I told myself "Wait... look, she's trying to help you. She's saying all this for you. There's absolutely no point in making this the topic, just hold it in and know that she is doing this for you. Scales of qualities don't matter, because you know your worth, and that this is not what you need to settle with her. She's helping you out, that's a very positive thing, that is the light... "
So I'm turning what seemed negative, break that harsh barrier to turn it into a great positive, and giving you big thanks and a sincere hug for your very kind help , you deserve it

Today I went to work and felt much better with myself. There are customers and sometimes they are women, and I just loved appreciating the small moments of attention from them. There was even a woman who ask me some questions in a gentle whispering tone (which I really liked) and felt a chemistry in our talk, I saw and felt her smile and it was a very beautiful moment, her smile was so touching and beautiful!
And I also talked to a co-worker, we talked about admissions test we will both take and it seemed we complete each other in what each of us excels and has difficulty with in the test, so it was an entertaining moment to offer mutual help and she agreed, got her phone number and I even asked if we can walk together after work. I feel so satisfied from out starting relationship, whichever it may be, so long as it's all positive I'm highly satisfied!

Also, I want to break my barriers by thanking all of you women who have also helped me out. When I made this thread, deep down I wanted answers from women since I want to break my anxiety so I can love listening to women. I loved getting attention from you.

There, I said it

Edit - I started feeling anxiety in my heart after posting this. An anxiety which masks the love I have expressed, the love which only wants out. But I'll listen to you more than I listen to myself now.
I'm all ears... and heart.