Why on earth would she find you repulsive?? Everyone on this planet 1. Deserves to be here and 2. Has something unique to offer that nobody else can, at the very least. If she does end up rejecting you, don't waste a second worrying about it, please. Not everyone is for you, and no matter how much work is poor into trying to convince them otherwise, it only leads to heartache. The people who are for you, will appreciate you exactly the way you are. though I do believe some people judge fast and don't anyways give people the chance they should... I'm not saying immediately write her off, maybe more like try to shrug it off... there are so many other women out there for you. I'd bet there are hundreds that would love you.