My son had a major seizure 2 weeks ago...and lost his apartment.
He lost it because the girl he lived with is afraid to find him dead as she is the one who found him unresponsive with eyes rolling in back of head and foaming at mouth.

My son is 27. My boyfriend has lived here for 3 years and has not worked or contributed to household. I have been OVER IT for at least 2 of these years.

He makes all of my bipolar and anxiety symptoms worse and I have been so worried about fighting with him in front of my son.

Also, he has a crack habit. I smoke pot which he says I'm a druggie too which I think is much different.

I was out shoveling MOUNT EVERST yesterday due to a blizzard and my son having to get up at 5am to go to work today. My son offered to help but because of his weakened condition I said no...(weak because he hasn't eaten much because he almost bit his tongue off during seizure and he is back at work too early but his choice). I said NO to him helping me.

My boyfriend was sleeping off a crack high from the night before and he came to the door while I was shoveling concentrating on my sons car and he was mocking me, telling me to make sure I got the front of his car...and I had been in the garage getting ready and he was yelling "where are you" your not shoveling..bla..bla...(so I come out and tell him to stop harassing me because if he said one more word to me I was having the police come and remove him)...

previous to him mocking me with the snow he had come into the living room while I was resting from cooking a chicken dinner and crocheting and starts calling me by my last name - being very disrespectful to me.

I called him a douche..he started yelling and being more of a douche.
This is prior to me shoveling...

I know my son heard the fight and I was grateful that he came up about 10 minutes later just to chat with me (probably see my demeanor)...YES, couples fight but I feel this guy has crossed the line.

I have a tendency to forgive people too easily. I do not think that he deserves. I have no respect for him at all....What does he have to do to make it up to me? I feel he should apologize to ME and my SON.

What if his mother was being verbally abused by someone would he like it? He had no place to disrespect me and I feel it was all out of guilt for laying around all day..this guy frigin sleeps from day to night...He was pissed off that I was not giving him money for crack yesterday because he hinted to it first thing in the am.and I told him he might as well sleep because i wasn't giving it to him.

Its not easy to have him removed either....I have tried. I feel sorry for someone who stays with someone when they are blatanly told they need to leave.

I really feel I could skip my anxiety meds MOST of the time if he wasn't here.
I feel my mood swings would improve.
I feel like I want something bad to happen to him (and that is totally NOT my personality).
I feel like he has changed me into someone I don't want to be.
I want this to end.
I'm up at 530 because I'm soooo pissed off.