Hi, I am so, so sorry for the loss of your mom. I was pretty young when I lost my parents, certainly before any of my friends did. Losing our parents is terribly hard...I've always felt like an orphan since my parents have been gone. I think it's a natural feeling to just want to run away. Thing is, you're still yourself if you run away. Maybe what you want to run away from is the grief you're feeling.

You are correct...you have to move on...and you will...2.5 years isn't that long ago; be kind to yourself (((HUGS)))