How is being young fun? I can't wait until I am lol, I can't wait until I am retired - except I doubt I will ever be that old.
I know I have it made, I don't have a job, I don't make any effort in school, I have no relationships to worry about, I have no freinds to complicate things. I should be happy. But I need less than this. I just want to be able to stay in my room 24/7 listening to music and sleeping.
Ok I don't I want so much more than that, but its impossible. I just want to escape to a place that doesn't exist. Everywhere I go is the same, everytime I run away everything is the same. It's endless.
My dad says when I am older I will develop a callous in my heart, then it won't matter. But he threatens suicide 6 times a year so I hardly see it in effect. He says he died before I was born and only lives for his family now.