I'm on the irritable side lately. I don't quite know what's going on with me. I get so lost in thought that sometimes it takes me a little while for me to really snap back to where I am. Waves of anger or tears come at random times...when I'm driving, at work, etc. My racing and intrusive thoughts distract me. I have a lot of plans I want to put into action, like trips. Sometimes friends will say they want to go, but then they run into financial issues.

I have offered to help them out, but I guess they feel funny taking my money and know my old patterns. I get really frustrated when I can't make things happen and get upset with myself and don't know what my friends are thinking about me. I feel I make a fool of myself. I am craving excitement in my life and have been trying to find it in all different ways.