I'm hitting the edge of my stress tolerance. Because of mudslides here in CA, I'm having 3-3.5 hour commutes to work and work itself has been very stressful lately. I'm at a point where I can't take it anymore. And I worry more and more about continuing on after my cat passes away as she is very ill. This has nothing to do with BP -unless those of us with BP have lower thresholds for stress tolerance. But I am very depressed and my anxiety is through the roof. I don't think meds will help except taking more klonopin for the anxiety. I think I've reached my limit and it's very scary. I can't face the world anymore.

I'm seriously considering taking Monday off from work. The guilt and shame are palpable already. But I'm scheduled for a very very stressful kind of shift at the hospital and I've been having waking nightmares of it. Just can't do it right now, can't face it, can't pull it off. I hate missing work, but my anxiety and depression are too much for me right now.