Thank you, starrysky I tried to take a nap today, but since I felt restless and sad, I took a shower and feel slightly better. I think I also have to stop paying attention to my phone since it can trigger....especially text, because it's easy to over analyze and interpret things wrong or care too much about what others think of me.

You give a lot of good advice. I took a hot shower, which helped somewhat snap out of feeling completely hopeless and self-critical. I love youtube and music. I should make a list of things that help keep me occupied and away from what's triggering me.

Even if it helps give a little bit of relief, it's better than crying all day and could help keep me in the moment (although that will take a whole lot of practicing right now. The ruminating thoughts are terrible). By the way, I like dancing in my room as well.

I'll keep trying. Some days are harder than others, and some days I feel like giving up, but I'll start trying some of the tools that can make things easier with time.