The one they are changing things around for is a local sister. When she found out the time wouldn't work for me she said "Well maybe we'll see you there later on."

Even thought I'm local, they never see me the rest of the year. This is how much they care if they see me or not. Most have not seen me since last year.

But aside from all of that, my sister who is hosting it couldn't care less about what she did to me a few months ago. Because of this, I just cant' show up.

I am severely depressed but I just read on here that you can't post about suicidal feelings.