Last night, after that happened, I called some hotlines. here's what happened:
I told the guy I was very depressed and that I found out I'm going to have to spend Thanksgiving alone (while my family celebrates). When I stopped talking he was silent. When I asked for comments he started asking me about other things such as if I was planning on staying up late. When I asked him if he heard what I had said earlier he said yes..then silence. So I asked if he had any comments. He asked how I felt about the that other stuff. I said that if I had friends that I could call or see on Thanksgiving it wouldn't be so bad. He said "why don't you have any friends?".
This made me feel much worse and I told him. He asked why that made me feel worse.
I told him that when I called there once before I'd gotten a guy who said something similar and that my counselor said that was not a good way for them to talk to a person at all. He said "then why did you calling back here?" I told him because my counselor said to try again and maybe you'll get a person that is better. Then he said "well you must not be getting something from your counselor for you to have to keep calling here."
That's when I said: "wow......I can't believe what I'm hearing."
I got off the phone with him and I called a different hotline. The woman sounded very nice and compassionate and was easy to talk to. I liked her. I told her about my experience on the last hotline too.
After about five mins. another line rang and she put me on hold. I was on hold for over 10 mins and finally I hung up. It was apparent that she didn't have the time for me....no fault of hers. Once again, just bad luck for me.
I called that hotline back and got another woman. She said she had no idea who I had been speaking with. She was very businesslike and every other word out of her mouth was "ma'am" and it sounded very condescending...as in "Look ma'am.....I'm trying to help you ma'am.......ma'am, could you tell me your reason for calling........ma'am....."
I got off the phone with her and just gave up.
I feel like I'm at the end of my rope now. I can't post here though because I just read that you can't post about these things.
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