I see no other way out! They have controlled me for 40 years! Even when I lived on my own they were always in my face. I can't even touch a pan to a counter without getting yelled at. If I say I dont' like something , such as a spoon I am told I need to be committed! They treat me like crap in front of my kids so now my kids treat me like crap! I even hide trash in my bedroom and throw it away in public trash cans so they cant see what i threw away! I wear headphones watching tv so they can't hear it, because it someone on tv says a swear like hell or damn, they can't take it! I hide wine in my car ( i only drink about twice a year) because they will turn bright red and won't know what to do if they see me with wine.
I am beyond frustrated, i feel like I have lived in prison for years. i see no way out and nothing getting better until they are dead! They have completely ruined my life! i hide in my bedroom all day so I won't get all bent out of shape and even more depressed than i already am. when I look at them my day is ruined! I am at point where I see the only way out is to kill them