Some days are hard yes,I feel needy tonight I have been triggered,my PTSD is showing symptoms.My nasty psyco narcissist sister got into my house again tonight while I was out with my niece and put stuff that wasn't there in it and moved stuff around again.She did it last June and I changed the locks and she still has the old keys,she can get in the back patio door if I go out and forget to lock the indoor patio lock,which I had done,developed a habit of not locking it thinking she wouldn't dare try it,she did.

It is doing me a favour I realised she manipulated me into giving her information over my mum's cancer and mum had sucked me into running round after her taking the load off my sister so this is a warning to get back the focus on myself.I feel needy and I feel under threat.I have no one to turn to to lean on.I can't afford counselling until April.
I am sick of the whole situation.Over two years I cut the narc sister out of my life she won't leave me alone still wants to use me and hurt me at every opportunity.Last June she was letting herself into my house and now she has started it again trying to get in.I don't want to get CCTV I don't like that,so maybe backing off and not seeing mum will help cos mum tells the ***** everything so she would know my comings and goings.

Yes I am needy and needing support but got no one to lean on but myself.
Not even my niece will see my side on this one.
I hate my sister so much Oh it hurts so much and I feel humiliated,attacked,violated and sucked in,it is getting to me so badly.I am going to have to ring domestic violence support again.