I can talk with them, I am having a break from them by my request. They only upset me when I see them, I keep getting urges to call them, but it is very complicated, I think I would just go backwards if I did. I'll think about it, thanks for caring jacq, I know some people would give their right arm to see or have their parents back, I feel guilty about that too, that I should just forget the whole thing, but it's hard.

Jin xxxx