I've dealt with having bipolar disorder since 2007. I've been unmedicated for the last 7 years successfully. Until recently. I'm waiting for a psych referral to go through so that I can see about getting back on meds. It's been over two weeks and I haven't heard back so I'm a little impatient.

I need counseling and help getting back on track. After losing my job last April and then having no luck finding something to replace it that has benefits or decent pay I'm feeling a little less than stellar. I've never had trouble finding jobs in the past but suddenly, I can't seem to land one. It's making me wonder if maybe I'm not that great of a candidate?

I'm currently a house wife and I know my husband hates it. I hate it. I'm overwhelmed by searching for jobs and also feeling responsible for everything at home because I don't have a job. I am disappointing my husband because I don't get every chore done before he's home and also am not cleaning or being productive household wise when he is home. I'm failing him and I can see that.

I'm not sleeping well and I feel like writing or doing my art stuff but I know that will signal to him that I'm not "well" and it will stress him out, so I haven't. I colored tonight and then he was very short with me because our puppy had an accident when I wasn't paying attention.

I stood in the bathroom and stared out the window for a while just to get out the worthlessness I felt before he noticed it. I have nothing to be sad about and it would just stress him out.

The sinking feeling I have feels like all the air in my chest leaks out and all my emotions go with it. It lasts a few hours and goes away when something happy happens, but comes right back when something is wrong again.

Monday needs to come so I can call my doctor.