I don't know what to do. How do I find someone to go out with on a date? I am in school (a very LARGE school) and usually I will go to class, workout, then go home. I have joined a few clubs too and made nice friends but not much else. I have gained some confidence and sense of self over the years, but there's not a day in my life I don't think about her. "When I will I find her?", "Is she out there?" I have prayed many times for her to come into my life.

My 1st relationship was 7 years ago (it was online) and sometimes I get extremely scared I won't get into a real relationship until I'm very old. Right now I'm young (22) and I want to experience "young love" like regular people do. Some days I feel completely hopeless and empty, like it'll get to a point where I'm like 30 and still single, at point which I'd probably consider suicide.

I've tried online dating (been on 1 site for years). I did not like messaging tons of girls and getting ignored, knowing their inboxes were getting flooded, like I was a needle in a haystack. It was just fake and meaningless (which is also why I don't have social media).

I just want to find someone like me. Quiet, reflective, and who leads a simple life. Someone who's been through a lot but is looking to really care and connect deeply with someone else. I don't want to have "sex" immediately. A few girls expressed interest in "FWB" or "one night stands" but I didn't love them so I refused. Most guys think I'm weird for that but I don't care what they think.

Is she out there? Why is it so difficult? What do I do...?