I am responsible for my actions but I crave forgiveness. I crave for a reset. I crave to go back to where I was. A do over. I keep having flashbacks. I am riddled with guilt. Every day.

I follow strategies but my mind won't stop. Even when swimming the other day. I can't swim well but I love the water so much. But my mind was just going crazy.

Bipolar has ruined my life and I fear it will soon take it.

I've tried twice. If it wasn't so hard it would just be easier.