My family looked so perfect from the outside. Even to some within the family. My father commented recently on how loving my mother is. He thinks that controlling and nagging and running people's lives for them is loving. I wanted to throw up when he said that.

Comparisons don't work either. I will always either get jealous of what i don't have, or feel guilty for wanting more when there are people worse off than me. Either way, I lose.

I'm not doing well today. Just hoping to make it through 3 days of work this week, and then take it from there. I need to lose myself in something, somewhere, and take a break from my life.