I feel for you. it took me three years after my dash-crash to come to the conclusion that despite my current limitations to lifestyle I was better off.

I'm not sure about you, but money is my barrier. It prevents me from living any semblance of my former life. At times I resent this and grieve my former life. But i have now realised there were some very unpleasant things about that life that i most definitely don't miss. It took all that time to come to the realization. That period was full of a lot of darkness.

i want you to realize that there is potential for things to improve. Part of my journey involved learning to reach out - and CBThelped a great deal too.