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Originally Posted by spotofbipolar
I am responsible for my actions but I crave forgiveness. I crave for a reset. I crave to go back to where I was. A do over. I keep having flashbacks. I am riddled with guilt. Every day.
I follow strategies but my mind won't stop. Even when swimming the other day. I can't swim well but I love the water so much. But my mind was just going crazy.
Bipolar has ruined my life and I fear it will soon take it.
I've tried twice. If it wasn't so hard it would just be easier.
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Awww hon...so sorry to hear.....are you in treatment? Medicated?
Untreated bp is a bleak way to live....I too felt the same until I got on meds and were tweaked right.....then it all has changed for the better. All the irritability and negative thoughts about myself melted away and I'm able to take a satisfying deep breath of fresh air....seeing past the fog.
I hope you see your mental health care provider, present to them how you feel and hopefully receice the proper treatment you need. Hang in there hon...it can get better.
