Recently I've been having a lot of nightmares about lack of privacy, and these have always been with either my dad or my brother (two of my abusers) catching me trying to be intimate with a partner or something like that. Trying to hide from them so I can be with someone I truly love.

But lately I've been having nightmares about about the two of them (separately) sexually abusing me. My brother once tried to molest me IRL, my dad never sexually abused me but there was a lot of sexual demoralization in my household and lots of emotional abuse about my sexuality and my body. Always comments about my breasts and my weight and my body (I was a perfect hour glass figure, like Marilyn Monroe, petite but curvy, growing up. My dad and brother made all sorts of fun of me for having a nice body and just lots of comments that made me very self conscious and hate that I looked the way I did.) My dad even made fun of me when I got my first menstruation cycle.

Anyways, I want these nightmares to go away. I know what they did to me, I know how it affected me, but I hate being reminded of it every night lately. I just hate what the PTSD does to me that it will find something in every day life that pulls up these memories and then traps me in a nightmare with them at night.

Any thoughts on how to exorcise these nightmares? I can handle other types of nightmares, but these sexual abuse ones are the worst.

Thanks,
seesaw