Sinking one thing I can tell you is life is hard and not getting any easier, but I have been a perpetual happy optimist ever since I "woke up dead" my eyes opened I could not speak yet but there in front of me squealing like a little girl was my first neurologist (he missed diagnosed me by the smallest of margins and I hated him for it,because my whole world came crashing down on me ) he proceeded to tell me that I remember going to bed (yup I did) and I thought I was waking up ( yup I did) in reality I had died in my sleep and alot had changed (yup it had ) and he knew me well enough to get correctly interpreting the faces I did not know I was making ( those thoughts of what you would like to beat in to him,just because it was him).
Long story short I have great respect for the guy and appreciate him like never before , coming close to exiting this world is scary stuff took me some serious therapy to get over that one , dieing is no game it's one and done , and surviving that is an awesome responsibility.
Trust me when I say , if today was not the best day of your life , try missing just one, I missed more than one, and no matter how much your brain tells you let's get out of here , don't give in , getting well is messy and imprecise science, but being dead really sucks , stay and fight , lean on us with broader shoulders , death is not the answer, I don't want to bore you or sound artificial, or tell you lies about how great the world and life is ,because it may never be all that for many people , the appeal of death is that it's unknown , no one ever comes back to tell us if it's nothing or more of the same as we have here ,but please don't give in , the answer is not worth it , cross that date off your calendar and fight on ,post or pm me anytime just don't give up .

Misterpain