I can't seem to find my way back up, I know there have been swings, I've felt the mania and the rage and all that, but I keep sinking, over and over, and life isn't helping. So much is wrong. And suicide keeps looming overhead.....Ive started to listen to it. I know, rationally this mood will pass, but will wild out of control, mania be any better? Plus my life is so screwed right now, depression seems to be an pretty decent and appropiate response.