feeling depressed in a scary way. i will have to force myself to get out of the house. yesterday i spend 8 hours watching replays of tv shows and only went outside to walk my dog. this depression feels like a quite storm. i have no where to go. everything is so quite. too quite. last resort there is an er near by. even if i sit in the waiting room that might be enough. but for now i am dumping this out and slowly moving toward walking my don. I haven't been sleeping through the night. maybe this can be from that. i don't feel safe. maybe it is just me