I have been reading through your posts amandalouise and you always talk about the new way things are done.As I was reading through them it made me start thinking about how my therapy changed throughout the years.
In the very beginning of DID therapy my T would 'try' to get me to do system mapping,even tried to get me to draw a tree and write down when and why each insider was created on the branches.And asked for names all the time.And the automatic writing stuff...all the things you call 'outdated'.
On thinking about it,I realize the way he did therapy with me completely changed and progress was really made after the focus changed to working on the past and the traumas,triggers,learning to sit with feelings,etc. instead of focusing on the insiders like he did in the very beginning.He stopped asking names,stopped saying things like "everyone inside listen to what I am saying",stopped asking for ages,it all changed.I asked him at the time why he stopped doing all that,forget exactly what he said though.
He's a very good T but I can see now that at first he really was doing things the old way but as things changed,the ways of doing things changed,so did he.
Trying to do a system map didn't work anyway.It was frustrating and I felt like I had to get it right but couldn't because I simply didn't know who was inside.What worked best was just allowing things to flow on their own,insiders presenting themselves while working through the traumas.
Some insiders knew about other ones,some thought they were the only ones.Some didn't believe in DID,one thought they weren't DID but the others were,one knew the entire system and everything about it,etc. So no way would doing a system map work anyway.
Funny how you can read things,think back and then have an aha moment.
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