The very nature of this illness means we are not always our best selves. Professionals are trained and should be better trained to understand this. We do not "deserve" bad treatment by them even if we are having a difficult time. I'd even go so far as to say ESPECIALLY when we are having a hard time. Some people don't get this and I hope they don't end up on the receiving end someday when they are deeply in crisis. When people are in SEVERE pain (physical or mental) they act out. If someone has a kidney stone and is screaming and cussing bloody murder, does a doctor have a right to treat them poorly cause they should be a good boy or girl and shut up? NO! Should someone whose had a small stone and didn't scream be looking at their neighbor in the ER with a big stone whose screaming and say "look at me, I'm not screaming and neither should you be". NO!

I'm typically very quiet, nice, polite with a great deal of social etiquette. In crisis, I turn inwards and harm myself or outward and get pissy with others. It happens when I'm in SEVERE physical and mental pain. I don't have a choice to just be a quiet good girl. If I had this option, I wouldn't accept that I even had an illness at all. Being quiet and turning inward can lead to death for me easily. Turning outward is not a choice, it just happens. It means I need HELP not judgemental attitudes. Doctors would be best to remember this. By treating me poorly when I've needed help and understanding the most they have committed attempted murder and should pay!!!!