Very hard to Go through this crap alone not sure if I have the patience dealing with all the stupid emotions dancing around. it is taking allot out of me . thinking of using the **** you button in my head and just let go ,closing that part of myself off,tightly rapping the chains and locking that part of me back into that Cell and never trusting again.
but the other side of me is saying to tough through this **** and even though there is no sign of it ending it " could be " here tomorrow just have to make it through today and tonight's Security job at the Marianas Trench concert. I am really tired and getting to old for this ****.