I might be losing my CPN and Community Worker. At the start of February my CPN said he was thinking of discharging me. I know this means I'm stable and better. This has been all I have wanted for years to be stable that is. Today I told my Community Worker and she said "oh right I might be discharged from her service too" she says she works under my CPN's supervision. She says if Psychology input is still there then she will possibly be able to stay. As she will be under Psychology supervision. Then today I saw my Psychologist and I asked her how long I'm seeing her as she is a Trainee.... I have her until May. I struggle with closure and need to know when I have endings.

Today I feel frustration and annoyance I struggle to cope with every day things. My family don't know anything cause I think they wouldn't understand. I have had all these life lines and now I'm feeling lost :-(